I really dont feel like writing anything today but I'll write because this is some very nice music and its relaxing me and I dont want to be in my apartment right now. So I'll just keep writing until something happens until I get inspired again. Yes yes yes I'll just keep on typing until the sun shines, until I get that call, yes I'm gonna conjure up something dammit. Today is Saturday and I'm gonna create, gonna create, yes yes yes, this is what aspiring writers do, they write until something happens until an idea pops up, well nothing yet, no Harry Potter novels here. Ok so what can a 35 years old goregeous woman write about that has no, ok thats more like it. Something was going wrong on my computer. so anyway i dont feel like even punctating write i dont care wirte now im just gona type until something happens POST!

When a Child Smiles..

When a child smiles at you and lights up your heart, take that as the most wonderful compliment in the world. A child is nothing but innocence, beauty and spirituality. They're the closest creatures to God. When they look at you and smile, that must mean that they see something in you that is still good, still pure, still innocent. It gives me a hope when a child smiles at me. It's like they are saying that we're still good and that we have a chance to make good things happen in the world. A child smiling at you is uplifting!

Red line train to Grosvenor

It's always a more pleasant ride home on the metro when I take the red line train to Grosvenor instead of Shady Grove. This is only understandable to us DC folk. Anywho, I work in DC but live out in MD and take the train in to the city daily. On the way back home which is White Flint Mall I have a choice to either take the red line to SG which is a nonstop ride home, or I can take the red line to Grosvenor which means I have to get off at G then wait for the other train to take me home. For some reason I choose to do it that on the way home during rush hour only because not very many people choose to take that route home so I get less people on those trains. It's so much more pleasant because I don't get all the tourist with their screaming kids, or the people chatting loudly on their cell phones. The ride is usually alot more quiet and that's the one I prefer. Yes, I may have to suffer a stop at Grosvenor but it's worth it to have the majority of my ride peaceful and not so crowded. Now I can only hope that not too many people catch on.

The Dream

I had the coolest dream last night. I dreamt that I was a superhero and my hair was so long. I could fly, change shape, climb buildings, jump, leap, see from far distances, and most of all kick ass! I love those dreams! Anyway, in the dream the world became angry with a black woman superhero, so I decided to hide my identity and live among humans. But there was a secret girls society that was dedicated to continuing my legacy. They were bothered that the world would not accept a black woman being a superhero so they chose to have a society that would protect the people in disguise. They were like guardian angels. Well once I had found out about this society I decided that I was going to come out of hiding but first I would secretly teach these woman how to fight, and I would give them some of my powers. But I taught them through a video tape so that they could be protected. They would watch my videos and learn how to fight and protect and once they passed the test I would give them some of my powers. In the dream I gave all the women of the society a beautiful crystal staff that they would carry with them all times on the streets, however the staff was disguised as a cane and they could use whenever they seemed necessary. This staff was amazing it could shoot lazers, it would glow in the dark, it could cause little quakes. They were like fighting sticks and the women were taught how to use them. I remember in the dream that I secretly came to their place where they met and I saw all of them were so happy and grateful that they received these staffs and I could see how they were appointed to guard the streets and be superheros. So I finally made my appearance to these women and they were so happy that they cried, and I cried as well because they taught me that I was doing a good thing and that I should not hide that. In the end I flew up into the sky and waved down to the women in the secret society and told them that it was their turn now to save the world! THE END

I made the Cut!!!

It's been a while since I've been back here. I have so much to tell. I finally went on an audition a few days ago and it felt great to do that once again! It was an audition for an upcoming Harley Davidson Fashion show taking place at the new National Harbor in Washington DC. The auditions took place at the Kirov School of Ballet. Once I got there all the feelings of auditioning came back to me, the nervousness, the voices in your head saying "should I even be here", the competition with your inner self more than with the other competitors. Once I arrived there I simply sat quietly and waited for instructions. I opened my eyes every once in a while to see other dancers arrive, lots of skinny woman, blond women with too much makeup on. I was so glad that I decided to go barefaced. Then finally they called all the dancers into the BIG room where there was a huge dance floor, a huge mirror and a table right at the center. I felt like I was on American Idol. They told us to individually walk across the floor to counts of 8. They wanted to see if all of us could count or have dancing ability. When it came time for me to do the 'cat walk' I was so nervous but I think I did alright. Finally each person had finished and they made the first cut right then and there. I MADE THE CUT!!! Words cannot explain how enlightened I felt when I heard my name being called. I was like YEEEEEEAAHHHHHHH! I mean it was such an accomplishment for me to have gone on an audition for the first time in years and to actually make the first cut. But I have to admit, I was good. So I made the first cut, but I have to see if they call today. If not that's ok too because at least I did what I said I was gonna do which was go on at least 1 audition this year! So now I can check that off of my list!! HA HA! I hope I get it, I hope I get it!

What a wonderful suprise!

I'm so happy! I was gettin worried that I may not be able to pay
my bills, but low and behold I've got two singing gigs in a row! Back to
back! I'm saved. Thank you God for listening!